Should I remain in a virtual world with my only contact being e-mail, text messages or writings in my blog?

Well get again I have had long conversations with an individual my Guru Maharaja suggested getting in touch with; all was going well with correspondence two or more times a day that is up to the point they met me since then silence.

This is not a one off occurrence I have also noted that some will read and make notes, some individuals will allow me to make comments on their blog whilst never taking the time to talk to me on the rare times we meet.

One individual stated they just found me too intense and boring, well it reminded me of a class given by my Guru Maharaja when one of his disciples explained he had been dumped because she found him boring.

May be I should have a double some one who could be the social me?

Hum may be not the best idea.

But I realise that my social skills are much lacking made more difficult by etiquette within devotee community I am finding hard to grasp, making me a social leper and compounding the feeling of isolation.

It reminded me of what a temple president once said “we have the real world and the one you live in, they cant exist together”

The thing is within work I am well respected a majority of client like me and my opinions and voice is listened to, but out side of work things just don’t work so well. Even my humour is lost as I once said to the temple president who’s quote I gave earlier if only I could be as successful outside of work as in work, even more so in connection with devotees.

The virtual me appear to be more exciting and focused but in the flesh I  appear boring, little focused and scatty well not the most desirable person to hang around with I guess and an area that needs much work.